Yes I'm up.....

So have you ever gone to bed knowing there is no way you're gonna drift off, cause you have far too much on your mind? Even though I really would rather be sleeping right now than blogging.....Here i am, and yes I'm up. My head hurts, but not like a headache. Like one of those times you've been worrying, brainstorming, problem solving, and your mind is just overwhelmed. That's me. I came to realize I have about a week left in May to get a lot accomplished, and a week isn't long enough. Then I think it's okay when the week is done I get a vacation. Well then I realized I get to squeeze in packing, planning, and preparing for that vacation in that short week. HA!

I have a lot of primary stuff to figure out, but as crazy as it makes me, I am grateful for it. If I didn't have my calling, life might be calm, maybe too routine. Ha. Who needs that? It pushes me to pray for inspiration, to get creative, to organize myself, and definitely always gives me something to do. It makes me a better person, even if I am trying to figure out what in the world I'm doing half the time. I think I can handle it right now. Now the thought of two kids, and who knows how many more years of it makes me a little nervous. I know I'm in my calling, cause I need to learn something from it. Whenever I figure out what that is, is another story. HA. So tonight I decided I will be grateful. :) I do love primary! I just wouldn't mind not being the one in charge of decisions and how things run.

I am already nesting and it is driving me crazy. I don't have time to stress and nest, yet here I am cleaning, making lists, budgeting baby stuff in, and reorganizing rooms in my house to see how things will work best. HA. I broke a book shelf trying to move furniture by myself. Serves me right, I knew I shouldn't have been. I keep telling myself I have time until September arrives, now if I could just convince myself I'd be good. Summer goes by so fast ya know? Well maybe it won't if I'm hot and swollen, and that might convince me I have forever to go. :)

On top all that I have other random things to do and get accomplished. At the same time feeling like I've lost myself a little bit in such chaos. I want some me time to rediscover hobbies, and friends, and even normal social skills. Ha. Where do i fit it in though? Who knows.

I guess I can say at least I'm staying busy. Venting on the blog isn't lacking, thanks guys! You can tell by my recent numerous post updates, it's definitely a way I release. Hope you don't mind. My head is feeling better already. Hope your not up late right now to read this, it might mean you're head hurts too...........